to pk

after you died
I went looking for you
finding you most
when I wasn’t at all

things besides memory
trigger your presence

across a roomfull of people
I felt your eyes following me

and again
across a windy road
leaves blinked on and off
in the treesplintered light
and I knew just knew
that if I turned just then
you’d be sitting in the car
right there alongside me

it’s not that you come to me
or anything like that
just more like
I keep finding myself
here still with you